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[7.9.07 - 10.15pm] |
Gah, well here I am sitting in a boreing lecture at University, and they can't even get the video link to work right. So while they fix it I shall update my journal.
ummm what is there to update about...
University is pretty cool, but it's a lot of hard work. I got sick for about 3 weeks and missed alot of stuff, so between catching up and geting new work done I've almost no time to do anything else.
almost anything else 
Been out to the clubs once or twice. Only had drinks one time though, for the others I had to drive XD
The Cri is a shithole, but it's good for dancing. the Exchange is ok if you get there at a time it's not over run with bogans. Bombay rock and it's Voodoo lounge is awesome, though it gets some freaky guys from time to time. Monsoons bar is great! The sov is pretty good, though I'm not gay! Madcow is also good, though everytime I've been there it smells like sick .... yeah... haven't been to any places where you have to pay to get in yet, though we might be heading out this weekend, so we might try them then.
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[8.16.06 - 3.28pm] |
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Well, about 2 weeks ago I got scarlet fever. It sucked in that I was bed-bound for over a week, but I did lose 4kg from it! (about 8-10 lbs I think). I'm now double motavated to keep that weight off.
My parents are born-again Hippies so they don't believe in giving me heaps of meds when i'm sick and they are firm believers in fasting when sick (i love them lol) so that was good, all I had for a week was water and some watermelon juice.
Yesterday was the first 'Eating' day, and I had:
100gs Pawpaw - 29 Calories
4 Macadamia Nuts - 36 Calories (NEVER eat a lot of these in one go, they are good for you, but high in Calories)
50g home made Lasagna (I was made to eat it at a family dinner :( ) - 68 Calories
I drank water all day - 0 Calories
Total = 133 Calories
Today so far ( it's 3pm here now) i've had:
150g Pawpaw - 44 Calories
200ml Carrot juice - 80 Calories
Drinking water all day as well
I think we are having home made roasted skinless chicken breasts, so I'll only have 1 piece of that (100g) which I think is 157 Calories, but then I might only eat half of that which is 79 Calories..... hmmmm I'll see.
there will be salad with it, and i don't have dressing or Avocado, so thats another 34 Calories.
Damn, i hate having to eat dinner with my family!! They will try to make me eat the whole chicken piece and have my salad with dressing and Avocado, but I think I can get out of it.
Thats about 237 Calories for today if I follow what I have here :( more then I wanted, but I'll burn it off when i work out tonight ( only half an hour though, I am sill getting over being sick and don't want to relapse.
I'm slowly building myself back up to 400 Calories or less a day. I wanted it to be 300 Calories or less but I heard that that will fuck up my metabolism, Have I heard true?
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[8.10.06 - 6.22pm] |
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You have to be 'allowed' to be considered anorexic in this community? maybe it's not the place for me, but I hope that this is not the case, so here I will explain myself…
I thought I had better clear some things up since my first post there was not well received and I was given a link to a website that gave a Criterion for Anorexia Nervosa and I was told that I must fit that to be allowed to be considered anorexic.
I know that they might have been trying to help but it just ended up hurting me.
I have been diagnosed anorexic by my doctor. That is why i am struggling to come to terms with it, but I cannot give up the life i have lived for so long. I am not strong enough. I have been forced to gain 6kg in the past few months, from when i was in a clinic. I do not like talking about my life while I was there, so excuse me for not saying so before.
I’m going to believe my doctor and not what some website says i must be to be considered anorexic.
anyway, what that site says fits for me mostly anyway.
1) I have never been what is considered a healthy body weight for my height (62kg is the min 'healthy weight' i have never been over 57kg and that weight was from when i was at the clinic. I am normally around the 50kg mark ( +/- a kg) though i wish i was lower) I refuse to go anywhere near the 62kg weight, even when i was being looked after.
2) I feel sick every time I go near the scales, and if I have gained weight I will sink deeper into depression ( yes, i have also been diagnosed with that)
3)I look in the mirror and see a fat slob, with rolls around my gut and huge thighs, and no matter how thin people say i am i do not believe them. I have a book in which i have cut out hundreds of pictures of beautiful models and glued them in. I look at that all the time.
4)I did not have my periods at all last year. I managed to convince my doctor then that i was under stress from school and therefore he gave me yasmin and i started my periods again, though they only came once every three months even on the pill.
I am the "Restricting Type" and do not allow myself to eat more then 300cal a day if i am not almost fainting from hunger. If i start feeling faint i will drink power-aid or eat a little fruit. I feel like i have failed when i do so and the cycle starts again. I will binge sometimes, but not purge, and I work the food off over a 3 hour intense workout, despite the pain. I do an hour of intense workouts every day otherwise.
So am i ''allowed to be considered anorexic'' now? *rolls eyes*
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[8.8.06 - 10.43pm] |
Name Danielle
Height 1.75m ( 5'8")
HW 57kg ( 125.6lbs or 8.9 stone)
LW this was about two years ago when i stoped growing in hight 48kg ( 105.8lbs or 7.5 stone)
CW 53kg ( 116.8lbs or 8.3 stone)
STG 50kg ( 110.2lbs or 7.8 stone)
LTG 45kg ( 99.2lbs or 7 stone)
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[8.4.06 - 10.24pm] |
I am very new to the concept that i have ana.
I have had a fixation with my body and weight for a while now ( over 5 years) and i know now that the hate and disgust I feel must be stoped.
I must get thin!
I have started watching everything I eat, everything i do. I am crazy, i know that as well, but I need to do this, I need to be like Kate Moss or any other of those beautiful supermodels you see in the Mags and on the TV. I need to be Perfect..
I admit I am frightend. I have heard so many horror storys of what happens to people, the physical and emotional side effects of this thing, but I have stoped caring, and i think that scares me the most.
Please, tell me i'm crazy if you think, or tell me I'm right.... I just need help, what ever that means. I need people that understand the horror of their bodies, the feeling of hopelessness, the pain.
But there is pleasure in this as well. I lost 1kg (about 2lb i think..) in only two days, and that made me feel so good, it gave me such a rush... I need more of that I think..
Please, If you out there let me know you hear me, comment back..
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[8.4.06 - 10.18pm] |
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I am very new to the concept that i have ana.
I have had a fixation with my body and weight for a while now ( over 5 years) and i know now that the hate and disgust I feel must be stoped.
I must get thin!
I have started watching everything I eat, everything i do. I am crazy, i know that as well, but I need to do this, I need to be like Kate Moss or any other of those beautiful supermodels you see in the Mags and on the TV. I need to be Perfect..
I admit I am frightend. I have heard so many horror storys of what happens to people, the physical and emotional side effects of this thing, but I have stoped caring, and i think that scares me the most.
Please, tell me i'm crazy if you think, or tell me I'm right.... I just need help, what ever that means. I need people that understand the horror of their bodies, the feeling of hopelessness, the pain.
But there is pleasure in this as well. I lost 1kg (about 2lb i think..) in only two days, and that made me feel so good, it gave me such a rush... I need more of that I think..
Please, If you out there let me know you hear me, comment back..
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| Animal Experiments |
[8.3.06 - 11.34am] |
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I'm too sick at the moment to do any real bloging, so here is some random facts for you to chew on....
If you think Animal Experiments are Necessary Consider The Following:
* Less than 2% of human illnesses (1.16%) are ever seen in animals. Over 98% never are.
* At least 50 drugs on the market cause cancer in lab animals. They are allowed because it is admitted that animal tests are not relevant.
* When asked if they agreed that animal experimentation can be misleading because of anatomical and physiological differences between animals and humans, 88% of doctors agreed.
* Rats are 37% effective in identifying what causes cancer in humans. Flipping a coin would be more accurate.
* According to animal tests lemon juice is deadly poison, but arsenic, hemlock and botulin are safe.
* 40% of patients suffer side effects as a result of prescription treatment.
* Over 200,000 medicines have been released most of which are now withdrawn. According to the World Health Organisation, 240 medicines are essential.
* Thousands of drugs passed safe in animals have been withdrawn or banned due to their effect on human health.
* Aspirin fails animal tests, as do digitalis (heart drug), cancer treatments, insulin (causes animal birth defects), penicillin and other safe medicines. They would be banned if results from animal experimentation were accurate.
* When the producers of thalidomide were taken to court, they were aquitted after numerous experts agreed animal tests could not be relied on for human medicine.
* At least 450 methods exist with which we can replace animal experiments.
* Morphine puts humans asleep but excites cats.
* 95% of drugs passed by animal tests are immediately disgarded as useless or dangerous to humans.
* One is six patients in hospital are there because the drug they have taken had been passed safe for us on humans after animal tests.
* Worldwide, at least 22 animals die every second in labs. In the UK one animal dies every five seconds.
* The contraceptive pill causes blood clots in humans but it had the opposite effect in dogs.
* We use aspirin for aches and pains. It causes birth defects mice, rabbits and rats.
* Researchers refused to believe that benzene could cause cancer in humans because it failed to in animal tests.
* Dogs failed to predict heart problems caused by the cardiovascular drugs encainide and flecainide, which led to an estimated 3,000 deaths in the USA.
* Heart by pass surgery was put on hold for years because it didnt work on dogs.
* If we had relied on animal tests we would still believe that humans dont need vitamin C, that smoking doesnt cause cause cancer and alcohol doesnt cause liver damage.
* It was denied for decades that asbestos caused disease in humans because it didnt in animals.
* Polio researchers were mislead for years about how we catch the disease because they had experimented on monkeys.
* As one researcher points out, the ultimate dilemma with any animal model of human disease is that it can never reflect the human situation with complete accuracy."
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[7.10.06 - 6.47pm] |
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I really never thought i would have a liveJournal... the things one will do for their ship *rolls eyes*
Ok, lets see how this party goes.
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